Saturday, October 10, 2009

Watching the movie Juno is both theraputic and torture

Okay, so some might say how lame I am for sitting inside on a beautiful autumn afternoon watching a movie but I would say to those people.........back off it's therapy.

Actually, the movie Juno is quite good. For those of you who haven't viewed it, the story line is about a 16-year old droll and witty girl who becomes pregnant and decides to place her child for adoption. I love her character and the movie is both humorous and sad but the best part for me is about her experience and seeing how wonderful adoption is and how amazing the human spirit is. I, of course, cry the entire last 45 minutes of the film and find myself not being able to breath during the last 20. Yes, this is a movie but at the same time it is quite the reality.

Someday I will meet a birth mom who will choose us and who will trust us to be the strongest and most loving parents for her child..........and although confident, she will be sad to let her child go.

Sometimes I have to remind myself that this process isn't only about Pete and I starting a family. It is about a women who is letting her family go. She is making a decision to let someone else raise and care for her baby.

She is giving us the greatest gift, a gift that we can only repay her by making sure this child is loved and cared for every day of its life and for this child to know what a sacrifice his/her mom made by allowing someone else to love and raise it. It's easy for me to know how Pete and I feel about this child but I want her to know how much this child is loved. And how greatful we are for what she has done and how I wish, more than anything, that she finds peace and comfort through this whole process.

Juno is certainly a movie that all can enjoy, not only people engulfed in the adoption/pregnancy process. It's funny, witty and has great music but........... the torturous part is knowing I've sat inside on a beautifully, sunny October afternoon to watch a movie I've seen at least 5 times.

Oh and by the way, this photo is real...you won't find any fake forest backgrounds in my adoption ad pictures.